Whisper & Fade

With quitting a job and leaving a state comes a few changes. Some will be gradual and some will be immediate. As we start to pack our lives and mentally prepare, those around us also make a shift. It’s the way it goes. We knew this would happen and really, it’s healthy. But sitting around your co-workers as they whisper and plan their next steps, you can’t help but feeling like your time is already over. Your opinion is no longer needed as you slip through their lives and memories. Sure, these things need to happen. Honestly, I’m so glad that they are able to move forward without me. It alleviates some of my fears and stress with how this move would affect those around me. Now that people know what our plans are, not all plans made are ours. Other plans will be made, and they will be made without us. It’s good, it’s as it should be and it’s a sad realization all at the same time.

Like a lot of things to come this month, it’s bittersweet. Nothing about it should necessarily be different, but I want to acknowledge it’s very real and noticeable presence. This move is an adventure and a blessing, but it’s not all a romantic comedy.

Ready or Not…

I’ve wanted to move for a very long time. So long, in fact, that I’m not sure I’ll be as good at it as I would have been then. I love the stress of it all. Yes, the stress. There’s so much to do. A small window of time. The details. The to-do lists. It all sounds so romantic right now, but maybe that’s just because it’s been awhile. Or maybe it’s been far too long since I’ve needed more than a mini-van and a dedicated day and a half to get it done.

This will be our first move. Together. As a married couple. And you know what? No one really knows about it yet. We’re putting together the details now. It’s in a small window of time. There’s a lot to do and darling, there’s plenty of stress.

Not only are we moving, but we’re dropping a lot to do it. It’s not just about the move. We feel we’re about to embark on a new way of life. It’s exhilarating and terrifying all in one breath. We’re not even entirely sure what is yet to come.